road to joy

It’s so wild that my parents met our basic needs with a roof over our heads and food on the table but were not kind people? I don’t feel like I got showered with love and affection and felt supported emotionally. I feel like my parents often said things to mock me and to remind me that life is all about hard work and that friends don’t actually exist that you are alone. And it’s so embarrassing at 23 to try to teach myself how to be kind and hopeful towards myself and people I interact with instead of being on high alert. I want to trust people and let them in but my own build up of insecurity and fear has made making friends and connections a challenge. I am so afraid of having friends real life friends and I feel so weird about being afraid. I wish I could be kinder to myself bc I know where this fear is coming from but it’s still humiliating to be so worried about this stuff instead of “adult” problems.

thepersonalquotes:

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Cuuuuuuuute

faithmp3:

faithmp3:

the relationship women have with their own reflection…beyond complex

I was going to elaborate but I don’t think I could capture it as well as some ppl in the tags

Wow the amount of depression I feel today is so much. Is it because I’m not at work? Or because I’m wearing big dumpy clothes? Or is that just like me? Perpetually depressed but functioning??

tangerinedream:

you ever wonder if your inability to stick to one thing purely stems from you being a being w too much love that just spills into every aspect of your life ??? how can i only love one thing when there is so much to love in this world? so many things so many places so many people….idk i guess i just…..love to love. Ugh